You can find a qualified hypnotherapist by going to the web site for the American Society of Clinical Hypnosis at http://www.asch.net/Public/MemberReferralSearch.aspx.
However, hypnosis is not magic or a quick fix. It probably will not solve your problems unless you stop blaming your childhood and start taking some responsibility for yourself. Yes, if you had been raised differently, it might be easier. But not everyone gets the life we all deserve. And everyone who had a difficult childhood doesn’t go on to make a wreck of adult life.
It’s your choice now: You can continue to copy your mother’s life by being an addict who is mean to the people who love her or you can honor the father who loves you by getting into recovery and making something of yourself.
A certified hypnotherapist uses hypnosis as a tool, not as a gimmick. You will still be asked to delve deep, to face your feelings and your fears, to forgive your childhood, and to take new risks. Whatever his or her discipline, a therapist can’t do your work for you but can be a guide and support in your process.
You are only 26. You have a whole lifetime ahead. It’s up to you to decide how you want to live it.
I wish you well.