I’m sorry you had such a troubled childhood and that your efforts to heal have not been as successful as you would like. Childhood abuse can sometimes take years of hard work in therapy and on your own to overcome but the work is worth it. I’ve found in working with trauma victims that sometimes the neglect and early stuff is the hardest to overcome. This makes typical therapy difficult because how do you get over something you may have been too young to remember?
If you read some of my posts you will see that I personally have become more and more interested in therapeutic techniques slightly outside the mainstream. Some that you may consider if you haven’t yet that have been researched are EMDR, EFT, DBT, and Energy Psychology. In addition, you may try Healing Touch or Reiki or even acupuncture to get your overall energy balanced. I suggest you do this in addition to continuing traditional therapy with someone who specializes in trauma and in addition to continuing any medications that have helped.
The bottom line is that you have to take YOUR life back and break free from the past. I wish you luck on your journey.