My Long Road to Redemption After a Suicide Attempt
People often talk about running away to another, better place to escape their problems. But they are reminded that the problems remain even if they clean up and do things right this time around.
I often have thought of getting a fresh start somehow. I got that opportunity, but in an unfortunate way.
A failed suicide attempt left me completely disabled, unable to work and with a severe hypoxic brain injury that affected many aspects of my life. I had to start from rock bottom and completely rebuild my entire life.
Before the suicide attempt, I had a great job, made great money, bought a new car and had lots of friends that I hung out with often. In retrospect, I had everything and I was proud of myself for working so hard and doing so well.
Behind the scenes, I had a bad drinking problem and was constantly self-medicating my anxiety and depression.


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