Comments on: D.I.D. I Do That? Thoughts on Dissociative Identity Disorder

By: wecallher7

wecallher7 — Fri, 11 Nov 2011 10:30:43 +0000

I’m really glad to find your article. I was diagnosed with DID this year and I’ve been having trouble finding help or info for it. I have a great doctor and therapist. I know my life is utter chaos right now but I can’t imagine integration. I don’t see that as being ME. And my alters are pissed about the idea. Thanks for sharing your heart. It helps mine.

By: bunny

bunny — Thu, 06 Oct 2011 13:15:57 +0000

This article was very helpful in my reasearch of did thank you Heather

By: Susan

Susan — Wed, 21 Sep 2011 15:37:21 +0000

I was diagnosed with DID/MPD about 10 years ago while I was in the hospital for severe depression. Thought nothing of it and never worked on the issue. Recently within the last year I have been in and out of the mental health system for depression,suicidal thoughts/attempts, anxiety and panic attacks. I now hear inner voices in my head that actually talk with another and to myself. They actually have names!! What the heck is going on? Cannot really say if I have different personalities or parts of my core personality or not. Was this doctor I saw 10 years ago correct in diagnosing me with DID?

By: jhanta

jhanta — Mon, 12 Sep 2011 00:39:37 +0000

I recently ran, not walked, to a therapist, finally willing and determined to see what’s going on. I’ve never had a therapist suggest MPD; and I’ve been searching for an answer to my issues in life via counselors, doctors, religion…for years. During these last few weeks, I find I’m nearly sick at my stomach often due to what I’m realizing I’ve adopted as coping skills. I’m just now beginning to “see.” I now notice when I am relating as someone else. During therapy I was cursing like a sailor and then another tone of voice said “trickery, it’s all trickery.” My therapist said let’s talk to whoever thinks it’s trickery. My mouth clamped shut and neither the sailor mouthed girl nor the skeptic was present – it was someone concerned about revealing it all. Here it is a few days later, and I’m still sick at the memory of the occurrence. It’s happening more every day too. I’m afraid. My sig other doesn’t want to hear about it too much – makes doubt rise. But he doesn’t deny it – he was the first one to point out my 5 year old fit pitcher. I get very little done each day although my sights are set high. I think that’s because I’m worried about how this is all going to turn out. I’ve always made so many excuses for not getting anything done with my life – and now my excuses are unraveling. I wish I had someone really smart; who doesn’t have DID, that I can relate these weird events to. Not my therapist – she has a different job. I do wish I knew other because I’d want to know if it all came together quickly for them too? Fast enough to make you feel ill? I’ve been researching. Published works are so discouraging. How come I happen to have something even the professionals doubt as credible! My internals are desperate for healing. And now they’re as confused as I am, and are debating every day as to who can take over and pull us thru. Just saying that makes me want to vomit. But it’s true. I don’t know how to get to acceptance. Thanks for listening.

By: Heather B.

Heather B. — Tue, 29 Mar 2011 02:50:11 +0000

Charlotte, Congratulations on finishing your memoir–that is wonderful. I tried putting mine together in a sensible narrative, but I instead ended up going with a journal that “any” of us were allowed to write in at any time. Just retired that one for several reasons–but as you know just the act of writing about what seems crazy makes everything more manageable. I hope you’ll share some of the memoir with us here at PsychCentral. Heather B

By: Charlotte

Charlotte — Sat, 05 Mar 2011 21:16:05 +0000

Hi, I have never seen this show but I have had 57 personalitites and I do know they are real because they are all different and look and sound different and are different ages and sexes. I have just finished my memoir and this book has kept me and the others alive so we can work together to become whole.I did not become aware of the others until I was almost fifty years of age. I am alive and growing to wholeness everyday.

By: Heather B.

Heather B. — Wed, 16 Feb 2011 00:11:22 +0000

I have to agree with blonde67. An S.O. who refuses to understand or help you with your coping will end up criticizing you and blaming you for things you may not even recall.
As hard as it is, we need to eliminate anything/one in our lives that is toxic.

By: blonde67

blonde67 — Sat, 12 Feb 2011 12:50:50 +0000

I have d.i.d. and I say if your S.O. doesnt believe you and refuses to understand….you would be better off alone.

By: Heather B.

Heather B. — Thu, 03 Feb 2011 02:09:25 +0000

If you are not giving yourself this private time in order to avoid being accused (by yourself of others) of being selfish, please hear this:

YOU DESERVE TO BE GOOD TO YOURSELF, AND you have a responsibility to yourself (and those who depend on you) to get and stay as healthy as you can.

(And I promise also that I will try to hear what I have just said!)

By: Heather B.

Heather B. — Thu, 03 Feb 2011 01:53:18 +0000

I am thankful to see such supportive and thoughtful comments here…like a small community has been formed. I continue through life one breath at a time and focus as much as possible on staying “in the moment.” When I feel overwhelmed I have learned to “unplug” for a few hours (sometimes a few days). The friends and family members in my life who count know that occasionally I may turn off my phone and my computer while I hide out and recharge. Since I have given myself permission to do this (for brief periods of time) and explained it to my loved ones, I am able to create a safe and guilt-free haven for myself when I need it.

By: Dianne et al.

Dianne et al. — Tue, 23 Nov 2010 13:17:46 +0000

Portia and others diagnosed with DID. The support that we can give one another is invaluable. I have no one except my therapist when I can afford him, but he is just a part of my recovery. We can help each other with a good listening ear, sharing the day to day struggles. Allowing a connection with others dealing with DID helps with the isolation, loneness and feeling as tho you are a alien in this world. I hope more of us can pen-pal and support each other not only with struggles but some of the funny and gifted parts of ourselves.

By: AngelDance

AngelDance — Thu, 04 Nov 2010 13:55:57 +0000

Portia..
I have been diagnosed since about 1998, and I understand completely about spouses not “getting it”…hence, mine left about 6 yrs ago because he couldn’t cope.
Would love to be your pen-pal and share struggles and victories!
Let me know.
Judy

By: Nativeamerican15

Nativeamerican15 — Tue, 15 Jun 2010 01:16:55 +0000

Portia,
I have DID and would love to be your friend…let me know.

Gayland

By: Molly

Molly — Tue, 01 Jun 2010 20:32:53 +0000

Portia, I would love to be your pen pal!
I don’t have DID, but I have always found it extremely interesting and would absolutely love to here what you have to say about. Hopefully talking about your struggles will help you get through them.

Let me know…

Molly

By: Portia

Portia — Thu, 25 Feb 2010 20:05:00 +0000

I was diagnosed with DID in 2001. I was seeing a psychologist for a year and a half, but-thinking back now-I can’t remember any of the session content. Lol. One of my alters stopped going to the meetings, and the psychologist replaced me with another client. I felt betrayed. I haven’t had insurance for years, and so I’ve been trying my best to cope with it on my own. It’s hard because one of my alters-Helena-cuts my hair and dyes it dark about once every three months, and I’m really trying to grow it out and keep it platinum because that’s how my husband likes it. And it’s scary when my children or husband are recalling a conversation we had, or somewhere we went, and I have absolutely no recollection of it. Sometimes I cry like a child-breathless and curled up in a ball-and I don’t even understand why. My angry alter-Tyyg-is so mean sometimes, and I watch, and am completely disgusted, but feel like I can’t change what’s going on in front of me. It feels like my life gets taken away from me sometimes. I feel sorry for my husband because I wish I could just be normal for him. He recognized three personalities right away in our relationship, but he looks sickened when I try to discuss anything about my disease with him. He almost seems angry when I don’t remember things. Lately I’ve just been staying in the house alot, and I don’t keep friends. I go through periods where I’m such a great, energetic mother and ppl person, to days where I’m sad and don’t want to go out of the house-it’s almost like I’m scared to go out. I am either binging or forgetting to eat completely. I just started drinking.. I am looking for a support system; pen pals, etc. Ppl who aren’t afraid to listen, or be my friend.