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Was I Wrong?

My daughter (9 yr old) was out playing with her friends a block away from our house. It turned pm. I went to get her but her friends said she wasn’t with them. I looked for her in the neighborhood for another 30 mins and couldn’t find her. It was getting dark so I panicked and called the police. In the meantime my husband was also looking for her. He found her and...
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Stuck In Childhood

I experienced three consecutive traumas during childhood — the first living alone with my severely depressed and volatile mother whose moods terrified me, the second a long period of violent sexual abuse culminating in my rape at age 9, the third a very open rejection and subsequent abandonment by my father. I’m now 23 and my life is beautiful. I have dealt with most of my issues. But one that won’t leave me alone...
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Reconnecting with Others But Dealing with Social Anxiety and Emotional Trauma

I’m asking for your help and I’m hopeful that you can point me in the right direction. The shape of my life is good, but there are lingering anxieties that have not resolved themselves in time. I’ve had the painful experience of being the target of bullying numerous times throughout my life. I’ve grown increasingly immune to bullying but unbeknownst to me a symptom has emerged. These episodes of bullying were traumatic but the...
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Emotional Attachment Issue

Hi, I don’t know whether you received my last message but basically after my daughter was born, the first time me and my partner had sex was all one-sided. He had sex with me while I was asleep. Even though I have been with my boyfriend for five years now I felt violated and that my trust was broken. Since then I am getting very angry with him and won’t let him touch me...
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Did My Grandmother Molest Me?

From the : Hello. I was molested by a relative of our neighbor when I was 5, but I’m not sure if what my grandmother did also counts as molestation. She would joke around with me and touch me between my legs and I would always laugh because she convinced me that this was all in good fun. I was around the ages of 4 or 5. She never did this around my mother,...
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Vivid Thoughts of Suicide

It started when I was seventeen, and stopped for quite sometime, just starting up again a few months ago. Only, now it’s more vivid. More terrifying. Yet, more… relaxing. I keep having extremely vivid daydreams/thoughts about killing myself. When I was a teenager, it was bleeding out. A razor across my wrists. Now, it’s a gun to the head. Barrel in mouth as the skull splits and cracks apart. Blood and gray matter spattered...
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I Want People to Hurt Me

Sometimes, I want guys to hurt me physically or rape me. It doesn’t feel wrong (I don’t know why, but my emotions are basically turned off), but I know that’s not anywhere near normal. It’s nothing that sexually arouses me; I often feel a need for punishment even though I can’t think of anything I’ve done wrong. I’ve been raped almost a year ago. I tried looking this up, but either I’m doing something...
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Should I Seek Therapy Again?

From the : I was sexually assaulted from the time I was 11 to the time I ran away from home at 17. I was kicked out of my family’s home, and sent to a place where I was verbally abused. (Told I was worthless, useless, and never would amount to anything, also accused of being a liar). After that I was sent back to my mom’s and sexually abused again. I tried many...
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My Niece Is Disturbed and Withdrawn

It is about my niece. She is withdrawn, hardly smiles and likes to draw disturbing images. My sister passed away 4 years back. Her daughter is 12 years old is very quite and withdrawn she does not like to talk about her feelings. She sometimes open up to me recently her drawing are very dark and disturbing, she likes horror and draws this black faceless figure, when I asked who is that she said it...
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Help Me Change

I’m a 21 year old female. I spent most of my life isolated and in violent fears and nightmares after witnessing my mother’s suicide at the age of six. After a long dark and Depressed teenage, I still am struggling to lead a normal life. I’ve been trying to act normal for the past four years, only to suddenly find now that I’ve only been trying to please anybody at any cost. I feel...
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Childhood Rape Is Preventing Intimacy

From the : I’m 17. I was raped by my older brother until I was 9 years old and I can’t seem to get over it. I’m in a semi serious relationship right now, but I haven’t even kissed him yet because I’m scared to. When I was raped I was forced to kiss him and I hated it. The taste, the texture, everything was disgusting. I haven’t kissed anyone since not to mention...
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I Am Scared of My Dad

My dad threatens to beat me whenever I do something wrong and he’s always insulting me and telling me I’m a disappointment. He and my mom split up and ever since I moved in with him this past June, things have gotten worse and he threatens me even more. I want to move out and apply for welfare, but I am scared when I tell him I am moving out he will turn those...
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