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Why Am I Having Crazy Dreams?

I have really bad crazy dreams. Usually about death and graveyards. I dreamed once I was with a group digging up graves because we had to preserve them better and put them back. My papaw’s grave is always in these dreams. Why am I having them and what do they mean? … I have had major trauma and I suffer from depression, anxiety and OCD. I was just diagnosed with paranoid delusions. Thanks. A....
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Dissociation and Amnesia

Friday night I started having an anxiety attack. I dont remember a whole lot. The next thing I remember I was a child holding my boyfriend and sobbing uncontrollably as if something bad had happened to me. Then my boyfriend said I sat up and said I don’t know who I am. Tell me who I am. He said he showed me pictures of the kids and I and I didn’t recognize any of...
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Confused, Overthinking and Rather Afraid

I honestly have doubts when it comes to my mental sanity. I will start by saying that I face social anxiety and that I isolated myself from the world, avoiding most interactions with others and rarely leaving home. I cannot make friends as I find myself unable to open up to people, family included. I have a phobia of loud noise (yelling, firecrackers even balloons). I saw a therapist but I have again discovered...
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Worried about Psychotic Friend

Hello there. So, I’ve recently made the acquaintance of a kid in my grade — a kid that most people avoid, because he is strange in an uncomfortable way. We really hit it off (I find that I end up relating to a lot of the things he says, or at least find them interesting), and while I only consider him a casual friend, he claims he is in love with me, and has...
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How to Answer Awkward Holiday Questions

I have a question that Google/Bing can’t answer. I was abandoned at the age of 4 and adopted by horrific, abusive parents (I have complex PTSD, among other issues). Although my abusive adoptive father died many years ago, I have been estranged from my also abusive adoptive mother for over 10 years (at the advice of psychologists and psychiatrists). EVERY YEAR, I have to field questions of “Are you going home for the holidays,...
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I Don’t Know What Is Wrong With Me

It is my third and final year at university, in both the first and second years I was working at a first level. This year however, no matter what I do I can’t concentrate or get motivated in the slightest. I have had constant anxiety for several months now, meaning I started skipping lectures because for some reason they became almost scary. I have also had an increasing number of panic attacks, I used...
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My Son Has Totally Changed

From the : Our son had always been warm and close in our family growing up. He is very smart and had a great childhood. He went away to get his PhD and marriage. About 3 years ago there was a huge change in his personality, now best described as: prideful, very little empathy, driven in his work, ungrateful, dislikes emotion, unforgiving, distant, inward focus, distrustful, suspicious, arrogant, no compassion, doesn’t seem to care...
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Can’t Get One Thought Out of My Head or Life

A while ago I found out that a friend was raped and cuts because of it. It got to the point where I had to talk her out of suicide with the help of our coach. That same night I find out my coach has been gang raped, hazed, stabbed, etc. Since that night I’ve helped my friend through everything but I’ve not been able to get any of it out of my mind....
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Not Sure What Is Wrong. Life Is a Lie for Me.

I’ve gotten to good at lying I even believe myself. When I was in 5th grade my step father told me it’s what daughters do for their dads. I was a child I didn’t know any better. It went on like that until I got my first boyfriend, I just wanted to be like everyone else normal, stop being physically attracted to the other girls. I would always tell myself I would tell my...
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Self-Awareness

I have no idea how to explain my issue. I give the impression that I think a lot, when in fact, I don’t. I don’t connect with people emotionally, and I am apathetic to the point where I absolutely give no regard to what comes out from my mouth (I toned this down a lot when sober by simply staying quite or simply throwing more subtle comments. And no I don’t do it out...
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