Archives for Suicide

Vivid Thoughts of Suicide

It started when I was seventeen, and stopped for quite sometime, just starting up again a few months ago. Only, now it’s more vivid. More terrifying. Yet, more… relaxing. I keep having extremely vivid daydreams/thoughts about killing myself. When I was a teenager, it was bleeding out. A razor across my wrists. Now, it’s a gun to the head. Barrel in mouth as the skull splits and cracks apart. Blood and gray matter spattered...
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My Brother Won’t Seek Help for His Mental Illness

From the : My brother is 19 years old and is currently living with me and my parents, he was in college but soon left due to his view of our financial issue. He claims he’s severely depressed and has outbursts a couple days per week, sometimes more. During these outbursts he rants about his mental condition, attacks my and my families insecurities and lifestyles, and even sometimes becomes violent over them. He even...
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Help Me Change

I’m a 21 year old female. I spent most of my life isolated and in violent fears and nightmares after witnessing my mother’s suicide at the age of six. After a long dark and Depressed teenage, I still am struggling to lead a normal life. I’ve been trying to act normal for the past four years, only to suddenly find now that I’ve only been trying to please anybody at any cost. I feel...
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Multiple Sclerosis, No Support and Daily Suicidal Ideation

I am diagnosed major depression, chronic recurrent, and GAD. Have multiple sclerosis dx in 1987. Two estranged adult children. Significant isolation, financial concerns, slowly opted out of friendship starting 6 years ago and now have none by design. I have near daily suicidal ideation which is calming, have method and access but no time table or immediate intent. One previous attempt at age 26 by taking 40 ativan but was intoxicated. I am depressed...
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Should I Admit Myself?

I have bipolar disorder and think about ways to kill myself almost every day. I am able to go and socialize with people while at class, but feel very down when I am alone. I occasionally have been hearing whispering in my empty apartment, which use to only happen in a manic episode. I feel like I can do daily tasks, but am fearful of how much longer it’ll be until these suicidal thoughts...
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Am I Depressed?

Hi, I’m 21 years old and a college student. I’m wondering if I’m depressed or not. From the age of 16 to 19 I was in a abusive, both verbal and physical relationship. Now being free from that for 2 years ago. I find myself bummed out, always sleeping, always tired, not wanting to eat, having thoughts of cutting or thinking of killing myself. I feel so unworthy, underserving, stupid, pathetic, not worthy of...
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Should I Seek Help?

Hi. I have an issue. I have anger issues. And I am anti-social. I can talk online but not over the phone or in person. I also think constantly of hurting others, or worse. Of course I have kept it in line by writing stories that involve what I have been thinking. But I am wondering what that is called with all that involved, and if I should seek help. I am also depressed...
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My BPD and Son’s Apathy about It

I’ve had chronic depression starting in childhood with an emotionally absent mother. I was recently diagnosed with PTSD/BPD by new therapist. Christmas marked the beginning of this debacle. which set up the disaster and now my BPD, etc is a Category 5 Tropical Storm. A CONTINENTAL DIVIDE now exists between my son and I has turned awakening my abandonment fears. His response is total silence (he refuses to investigate this new BPD thing) and...
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I May Need Mental Help

I understand how this may seem strange, a 13-year-old thinking this. Also how it may seem fake, but I feel this is serious enough to say. I have been seeing recently more often people who are not there, illusions if we must. I have very frequent thoughts of murder and suicide. I talk to myself very often and often wonder about how a murder happens. I hear voices in my head often telling me...
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Why Do I Fantasize about Killing People?

I sometimes think about killing people. Sometimes I have urges. Some of these fantasies are pretty detailed. This has been only been happening of late, when I’m frustrated or depressed. Before, I would want to hurt myself, now it’s mostly directed towards other people. It’s no one in particular, just random people. I just feel the need to cause violence, to destroy. Is this normal? Also, I don’t really have anyone I’m comfortable with...
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Might Be Bipolar

My doctors are having a hard time determining if I am Bi-polar. I go through weeks of depression to the point of considering suicide than come out of it. I have panic attack where I get very nervous and angry but I am not sure if that counts as a manic episode. I will start breathing very quickly till the point of not taking in any oxygen, driving dangerously down the roads, cutting myself,...
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Worried about Psychotic Friend

Hello there. So, I’ve recently made the acquaintance of a kid in my grade — a kid that most people avoid, because he is strange in an uncomfortable way. We really hit it off (I find that I end up relating to a lot of the things he says, or at least find them interesting), and while I only consider him a casual friend, he claims he is in love with me, and has...
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