Archives for Suicide

Is My Depression Something I Should Seek Help For?

My depressive episodes are really weird. They sometimes last around 2 weeks (my best guess is around 13-18 days but my most recent episode lasted a month) and during this time it’s absolutely horrible. I’m super suicidal during those weeks and I get crying spells. I also won’t be able to stop SI’ing and I get super scared of myself because I think that I might actually take my life. It got super bad...
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My Friend Is Suicidal and I Don’t Know How to Help

I’ve been friends with a girl online for almost 10 years. She’s always struggled with depression, and has dropped out of middle school, then high school, then university. She’s 24 now. She just got a really good job, but then she almost immediately started deteriorating. I’m Bipolar II, and I suspect she is also Bipolar. She cycles rapidly between manic states and depression. She has repeatedly told me she is constantly thinking about suicide....
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Why Do I Engage in Self-Abuse?

I verbally abuse myself “You’re worth nothing,” “You’re a piece of bleep and don’t deserve to live,” “No one loves you,” and I hurt myself only by hitting myself. I punch myself in the head and leg multiple times and very hard. I’ve had suicidal thoughts, and how serious I am about actually committing it is unsure. At times I think “I can just do it,” but something tells me I probably won’t. I...
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I’m Contemptuous of My Emotionally Abusive Dad

My dad is emotionally abusive to me and my mom, has been for years. I didn’t realize in till this year after a series of conversations I had with the school councilor. When the councilor asked if I had ever feared physical violence at home was kind of an AHA moment. She also pointed out behaviors I thought were normal as abusive. That combined with my own research on emotional manipulation led me to...
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My Life Is Taking a Turn for the Worst It Seems

For a while now, I have shown symptoms of depression as well as social anxiety. I talked to a therapist about whatever I could. I told him about some other things like the repetitive tasks I must perform out of fear, my derealization experiences, etc. All he told me was that I was experiencing a lot of anxiety. I’m not sure if I explained myself too well or if he doesn’t necessarily want to...
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The Need for Pain

I was abused as a child, locked alone in a room for five years with no food or human contact. Ten years later, I am married and we just bought a house, but it seems some of my demons are moving with me. Several years ago I tried to kill myself. I haven’t had any attempts since then, but I have gotten very low. And it’s then that I imagine my worst tortures, usually...
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Confused & I Don’t Understand the Way I Think

I’m 21 and I feel like so empty and confused as will in a way that I think I found both men and women attractive I’m not sure really. I also change a lot of mood like I was happy and very friendly then suddenly when I heard or feel something not appropriate or things that I don’t like I directly shift into a different one and I get pissed and I don’t talk...
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I Don’t Know with What I’m Dealing

From years now I’ve been suffering from something unknown to me, and I’ve spent a long time doing some research to find on my own, I know that I really need to see a professional. I’ve been dealing with self-injury since I was like eleven, I don’t know how to explain it but it always felt like someone/something was always in the back of my mind telling me to do it because I deserved...
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How Do I Tell Someone about My Possible Depression & Social Anxiety?

I am fourteen years old. I’ve been experiencing severe depressive symptoms with terrible suicidal thoughts for weeks now. I have also been experiencing all symptoms of social anxiety since grade five. I can’t stand it. There are many different physical and mental tasks i must repeat in order to ensure the safety of me and others. I seem to always have the urge to break something or kill someone. I overeat way too much....
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Inability to Move on from Relationships

I’m a 33 yr. old widow (suicide) and I recently separated from my partner of 3 yrs. and began dating. One of the men I dated for a few mo., and I just “broke up” a few days ago and I’m having a hard time accepting this. I contact him constantly, I think about “us” all the time and I feel that I have an overall pattern of difficulty with acceptance and moving forward,...
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I Need a Diagnosis

Please, I don’t know where else to go. I’m a 17 year old trans boy, and I break down at least 1-3 times every day. I just tried to kill myself a few days ago. I’m freaking out and paranoid that everyone is out to get me. I am convinced all of my friends hate me and want me dead. I don’t know how to deal with these feelings. I need a diagnosis so...
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