Archives for PTSD - Page 4

Partner’s History Problems

My boyfriend is ex-army and talks about when he was in training someone died due to a mistake he made. he constantly thinks about it and makes are relationship very difficult. it seems to bring him alot of anger issues, i know he loves me but he puts me down and constantly picks faults with me. im 5 month pregnant and don’t know where to go and get help for him. he is constantly...
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Considering Leaving Bipolar Husband

My husband was diagnosed with PTSD (not military-related) and bipolar disorder approx. 5 years ago. In retrospect, many of his problems pre-date our 20-year relationship; some used to seem like quirks or immaturity, or he would find ways to justify them. These days, I barely recognize him. He only socializes with select people and keeps them meticulously separate. He spends his evenings in our basement tinkering, avoids me and becomes obsessed with “projects.” Conversations...
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Delusions

I have ptsd and borderline. This winter, I had a phase of four months in which I had delusions. The delusions entailed having somebody else’s presence in my head, up to the point where this presence (while being in my head) wanted to kill me or wanted me to kill myself. People have suggested schizophrenia but I’m certain I don’t have that, because I don’t switch between personalities. I just feel like people (they’re...
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Failed Recollection of Childhood Memories

Is it normal for me not to be able to remember 98% of my childhood memories? I’ve heard its common for trauma survivors but it doesn’t make any sense. Its not just childhood memories I can’t remember. I can barely remember any memories from my time at high school and I only left last May. I was wondering if this could be due to something I went through when I was 13. I came...
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Depressed, Angry & Shutting People Out

In the last 2 years I’ve developed depression. Recently I’ve been having nightmares/daydreams that remind me of a past experience of abuse I witnessed and I’ll wake up crying, sweaty, and terrified. Also, lately if feels like I have a literal heart ache and I’ll always cry for no reason, I know it’s not heart problems because I’ve been to the doctor about it and my mom just thinks it’s a “phase”. I’ve also...
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Emotional Shut Down

Problem with being emotional shut off. I have a problem where I’m completely shut down, I don’t have pain, anger sometimes even happiness. Once I get to a point of sadness or anger its like a switch and I don’t feel anything. I was all types of abused as a kid from being burned by cigarettes, to broken bones and put into the hospital several times. I was neglected by my mother who had...
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Constantly Changing Diagnoses

I was first diagnosed in 2008 after I had been hearing voices for a little under a year. After 1 1/2 to 2 years I was stabilized with meds. No voices. Only a couple of suicide attempts. I then had a baby. About a year and 1/2 later, voices returned. Even more evil and cruel than before. Medication is not working for them, but makes it slightly more tolerable. My diagnosis has gone from...
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Embarrassed In Front of Children

I’m 24, mother of twin 5-year-old girls. I’ve always been outgoing, athletic, intelligent, very pretty, very competent. Never experienced depression. A week ago my husband took our daughters to the zoo while I stayed home to shop and relax. When I returned from shopping I walked in on two men burglarizing our house. I was pretty well trapped and cooperated. They wanted bank and credit cards, pins, and promised not to hurt me but...
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PTSD After Father’s Disappearance

I never knew my dad. When I was 12 (2007) my long-lost family (dad’s side) contacts my mom and I. They tell us that my dad disappeared after receiving his suicide letter in the mail. They searched for him, but never found his body. Since then, I’ve been diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder. Although, my mom had noticed that I had a slight anxiety disorder as a youth but, panic attacks have increased in...
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Traumatic Childhood Events & Self-Confidence

Okay. This all started from when I was eight years old. My mom and step dad both worked a lot so they would have my cousin Amber babysit me. One day she kept me inside the house and pulled all of the blinds shut. She proceeded to force me to perform oral sexual favors on her. She was 16 at the time I believe. So, after forcing me to do this she took me...
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Nervous Jaw Clenching

In the past year I have begun clenching and popping my jaw and I just found out how noticeable it is to others. Apparently I also widen my eyes and jut out my jaw. My cousin showed me a picture she had taken and I am in the background obviously doing it. It has also caused me to have a deep wrinkle under my chin. I am mortified now about it, especially at work....
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