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Wanting to Rape

I am a 32-year-old man and I am suffering from severe depression, dissociative disorder, PTSD from physical and sexual abuse and anxiety disorder. I have noticed that I have been drinking a lot since I began dissociating and losing time. Once I drink I dissociate and I am ready for anything, apparently. I have an obsession with raping women. Let me tell you that I am transgender and born female and have been raped...
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I Am Concerned I Am Developing Schizophrenia

I am concerned I am developing schizophrenia. Recent events in my life have led me to believe that I may be developing this disease for several reasons. I really began to worry about a month ago. There was a period of my life when I went through heavy substance abuse and just as I was getting sober I began to notice what I think are early signs of schizophrenia. I am more spacy and...
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My Therapist Didn’t Show Up

From the : I don’t know how to handle my therapist not showing up to my first appointment with her. I’ve been crying all day, and had to have a beer and shot of tequila because I felt everything I already think about women and the ways I’ve been treated by them are NOW completely validated. She called to apologize, but I am so disappointed and don’t know if I really want to go...
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Will My Paranoia Lead to Schizophrenia?

Yesterday I was diagnosed with paranoia, and I started on Saphris. I’m worried that my paranoia will eventually lead to having schizophrenia. I am 16 now, and will be 17 in 2 weeks. I have an older sister who is schizophrenic, which means I could easily get it. My main issues before being diagnosed with paranoia were anxiety related. I always thought people were staring at me, laughing at me, or judging me in...
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Did I Make a Huge Mistake?

From the : I’m 44 and have a 15 yr history with husband. We have a 13 yo son with some special needs. Been through hell with this man, who started using crack before our son was 2, abusive while using. Verbally/emotionally and some physical. Got Married in 2007. I filed for divorce in 2009, which was put on hold in 2010. August 2013 he began seizing at work, blood sugar almost 900. I...
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Double Standard About Substance Abuse

From the : Last year around Christmas, my boyfriend and I went out drinking with friends. We had a blast. Unfortunately, when we got back to our hotel room, we got into a verbal fight and he ended up kicking me in the face. I was shocked and felt sick to my stomach. We had gotten into fights before while drinking but it had never turned physically violent before. He was horrified by his...
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I am Hurt and Ashamed, and So Are My Parents and Sibling

My parents have always been ashamed of me because I married the man that they did not want me to marry. And after almost 20 years of my marriage, I ended up in a divorce. My parents’ reaction was mixed — they were sad and at the same time felt I deserved it. Quickly after that I reconnected with my high school classmate.┬áThat’s when my parents panicked and wanted me to get back to...
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Feeling Disconnected

I’ve been dealing with severe depression and anorexia for around 3 years and because of it I have always felt exhausted and cranky but just recently (within the past 6 months) I have been having other issues. I am so fatigued that even walking is straining on my body, I become dizzy everytime I stand, I feel very depersonalized,I have a strange ringing in my ear, and I don’t have much emotion besides anger....
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I Feel I Am a Psychopath

I am 17 years old, and I have been called rather a sociopath from the perspective of other people. Since I was a child, I have been in and out of trouble (being kicked out of school for illegal drugs, fighting, etc.) but I always seem to talk myself out of serious trouble, never have even been to court for my illegal doings because of my way with words. I have always been very...
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Am I Depressed Due to Parents Drinking?

Hi, I’m a seventeen year old girl concerned about my mental health. My parents drink sometimes. My dad becomes violent and annoyingly strict when he’s drunk, and we fight a lot. My mom becomes weak and she doesn’t give a shit about anything, so i feel threatened and unprotected of my dad. They usually drink for a week and stay sober for another three or so. Then start drinking again. It’s been like this...
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Boyfriend’s First Psychotic Break

Hello! For the past few months everything was going fine in my two year relationship with my boyfriend. He’s my best friend, boyfriend, and lover, and we’ve been very much in love. Everything was normal, he works, I go to school, we go on dates etc. He is the sweetest most loving, caring, responsible, logical and ‘together’ person any of us know. Then one day he came home from a concert and started acting...
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