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I Am Losing Everything I Worked For

I have suffered from severe depression for most of my life. I also am a binge eater. I am super morbidly obese. I have been on disability for almost 8 years. I have times when I do very well, while disability, I signed up for the pass plan. It pays for schooling so a person can get training to get a job. I went to a vocational school for 3 months, and I got...
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Stretch Marks are Ruining My Life

I am only 20 and I’ve had stretch marks since I hit puberty. I was chubby when I was younger and I didn’t eat right. I think that’s the reason why I got stretch marks all over my body. Literally everywhere. On my arms, my breasts, my hips my thighs and knees and behind my calves. Some people think it’s over reacting, but I developed many issues because of my stretch marks. I love...
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Is There Something Wrong with Me?

For the past two years I’ve been feeling isolated, unmotivated and as if I will never amount to anything. I have developed the bad habit of thinking of creative ways to commit suicide or how to make other people feel guilty as a result of me being miserable. I find myself avoiding all kinds of social interactions, then later wishing I had more friends. Often times school causes me enough stress to have regular...
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Middle-Aged and Still Bulimic

I am 51 years old and I have had an eating disorder since high school. I have been in therapy in the past for about 14 years tried many meds injured myself, and now I am leveled off, living on my own raising a son and him successful. I have been out of therapy. I have not been in therapy since 2007. I say I am a non practicing bulimic. But it still runs...
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Losing Touch with Reality

I’ve always been paranoid. I’d cry at least once a week from the ages of 4 to 9. I’d cry at night worrying about my parents dying or us being robbed and murdered or one of my parents dying in a car crash. There was no reason for this, yet I was terrified. My mom would read me bible passages to try and help but it rarely did. Now, it’s slightly different, I suffered...
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Persistent Destructive Behaviors

To whom it may concern, I find my life increasingly consumed by a number of destructive behaviors. For example, binge drinking, binge eating, self harm and continually lying and stealing from close family for no apparent reason. I don’t mean to do these things, it’s just like something takes over me and these happen. As a result my relationships have suffered and I have an increasingly poor image of myself. A. Though not apparent...
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Emotional Abuse by Father

I’m 21 and I didn’t have an easy life. My dad has always demanded so much of me that it ended up draining me and sending down a spiral of depression, OCD, eating disorders and suicidal thoughts. My dad’s constant pressure has never allowed me to grow as a person and know what I want for myself in life or what I believe in. For example, ever since I was 5 my dad was...
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Weird Feelings for a Long Time

Hi, I usually feel a little paranoid about these forums, but I just want an opinion. I don’t even know where to start. I’ve dealt with self esteem issues for a long time. In high school I was known as the weird girl who ran around and was hyper all the time and got in trouble (I went to school overseas) I’ve had difficulty sleeping for the past 4 years, I’ve lost some weight...
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Vague Flashbacks

Since very early in my life I have experienced intrusive sexual images that have been nearly impossible to rid myself of during some episodes. Recently I have reflected on how these thoughts seem quite like flashbacks. They are always involving the same person and are extremely real to me. Almost too real for someone supposedly having never experienced the things that were in these intrusive thoughts. After these episodes I never want to be...
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Crying and Anger

Often I find myself more sad than happy. I don’t feel good enough to anyone, and when I try to say it to my family of a friend they always tell me to get over it. They tell me that I think the worlds out to get me when it really isn’t and I should stop acting the way I do. Sometimes I go to my room and regret even trying to talk to...
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Abusive Family Causing Trouble

This eventually got to me and I became suicidal at age 8. I cried and prayed every night that I would die in a terrible accident. I eventually swallowed a whole bottle of pills at 11, but survived(obviously). Then I began self harming and developed an eating disorder of sorts. I still struggle with all of this, including the abusive family, to this day. I’ve gone a month and a half clean from self...
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Still Facing Eating Disorder

Last year I got influenced by an anorexic friend and I started experiencing eating disorder symptoms. I binged & starved & eventually ended up purging as well. I went to therapy for 6 months & got over all of it. I was eating fine for 3 months, and then I finished therapy. Now I’m having thoughts about eating disorders, calories, all my problem areas, etc. I don’t eat more than 1200 calories, & there’s...
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