Archives for Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) - Page 2

Wanting to Rape

I am a 32-year-old man and I am suffering from severe depression, dissociative disorder, PTSD from physical and sexual abuse and anxiety disorder. I have noticed that I have been drinking a lot since I began dissociating and losing time. Once I drink I dissociate and I am ready for anything, apparently. I have an obsession with raping women. Let me tell you that I am transgender and born female and have been raped...
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I Think People Are Watching Me

Why do I think people are watching me on hidden cameras all the time? Ever since I was around 5 years old I’ve thought that people are watching me, not just people I know but celebs, doctors and random people too. I ignored it as a child but as I’m getting older it’s getting worse. I keep thinking that I’m an experiment of some kind, and people are watching and studying me. Its like...
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I Keep Losing Time

From Canada: Ok, I really don’t know what to do. I’ve been losing time. It started two years ago, but it would only be for a few minutes. It’s gotten worse lately. It could be anywhere from a few minutes to a few hours. I’m a 23 year old male and I live on my own. Recently, I’ve woken up twice with strange marks on my body, the first time it was deep scratch...
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I Feel like I’m Losing Grip

First of all, I didn’t know which topic to put it under, since it also involves my husband, and the other, that being psychosis, but since I’m the person feeling it, I believe it should be psychosis. Allow me to explain-both me and my husband have been diagnosed with some very serious disorders-mine being a VERY severe case of OCD, and my husband schizoaffective disorder, more leaning toward bipolar. I’m going to just my...
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Dissociation, Avoidant, or Antisocial Personality Disorder?

I am emotionally detached; I am not capable of feeling love (or at least I cannot recognize the feeling), and my other emotions are muted (the only emotion that I can feel strongly is annoyance). I cannot really feel guilt, and have little empathy (I feel sorry for the abused children and sometimes the homeless, but otherwise I could not care less about anybody, not even family members). I do not react at all...
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Could I Possibly Have DID?

Okay, so I’ll try to make this short and concise. I have these people (really they’re more of voices) in my mind, and they all have names and personality traits and even different hand writings, and when I think about them, I can picture exactly what they look like. Sometimes, I’ve even seen them in my dreams. They have conversations, sometimes amongst themselves and sometimes with me. They “take over” my body when I...
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Experiencing Weird Symptoms Since October

Ever since October, 2013, I’ve been sort of… Out of it. It started with a panic attack; the first panic attack i’ve ever had, or at least from what I remember. It was an odd feeling. I felt numb and around the sides of my head felt tingly, almost cold. My vision felt zoomed in, although whenever staring at objects like my hands or anything else that was actually protruding off the wall or...
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Why Don’t I Have Real Feelings in Relationships?

I’m 19 and have been experiencing strange emotions this past year. The deep connections I felt with friends are suddenly forced and it is almost painful to be around people. I have also had strange spells of depersonalization. My ex boyfriend died a couple years ago which led me into a spell of depression and I don’t know if I ever made it out or if I’m just used to it. I’m constantly annoyed...
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Should I Confront My Grandfather?

From the : My grandfather sexually abused my uncle and aunt. My uncle sexually abused my mother in return. My grandfather spent their childhood turning them against one another; this my mom wouldn’t let us stay with them by ourselves after a certain age. My mother suffered from DID and her therapist thinks my aunt does as well, along with bipolar disorder. My mother got better, but recently my aunt attempted suicide. She is...
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Multiple Personality Disorder?

I’m just a normal 14 year old school kid, but lately i have had an urge to develop Multiple Personality Disorder. I am honestly just really curious as to how it would be like living with MPD, and I wanted to know if there is a way to develop it without being traumatized or suffering a similar event. I don’t know why, but lately i have been searching all over the internet for a...
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My Imaginary Friend Is Becoming Too Real

I’ve had an imaginary friend for years. Lately, when I see myself in the mirror, I hear her telling me how worthless I am. She seems to take over and I can’t do anything to stop her. I’ve been carving words, of her choice, into my skin because I can’t help but agree with her when she tells me what a failure I am. I feel as though I need a permanent reminder of...
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Constantly Changing Diagnoses

I was first diagnosed in 2008 after I had been hearing voices for a little under a year. After 1 1/2 to 2 years I was stabilized with meds. No voices. Only a couple of suicide attempts. I then had a baby. About a year and 1/2 later, voices returned. Even more evil and cruel than before. Medication is not working for them, but makes it slightly more tolerable. My diagnosis has gone from...
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