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Depressed Because of Not Having Anyone Who Will Support Me Financially or Physically

My parents got separated 10 years ago and my mother brought up me and my little brother single handed. My father was not concerned about us and he is dead now. But when I was growing up, I felt the terrible need of my father. I still feel unprotected and unsafe. I feel like none will come to save me if i am in danger. Maybe it is because I have faced several sexual...
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I Need a Diagnosis

Please, I don’t know where else to go. I’m a 17 year old trans boy, and I break down at least 1-3 times every day. I just tried to kill myself a few days ago. I’m freaking out and paranoid that everyone is out to get me. I am convinced all of my friends hate me and want me dead. I don’t know how to deal with these feelings. I need a diagnosis so...
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How Do I Manage BPD without Therapy

From the : I have BPD and Im aware of the break up and get back together and the bpd rages and all that. However, I still cant prevent myself from doing this. Even while I am trying hard to think rationally the bpd thing just trumps. At the moment i’m not seeing a therapist but i will once my health insurance application goes through. What can I do in the meantime, to control...
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Very ‘Odd’ Behaviors

I used to get many strange looks for the things I did, like smash a bird on the beach with a rock when I was younger, blow fish up with fireworks, laugh when a rock was thrown at a bird and broke its wing, and I also used to abuse pets a lot as well. I used to beat the dog, I would choke my pet hamster until his eyes started bugging out, stuff...
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Why Do I Tell Lies?

I don’t understand what is wrong with me. I make up lies to make myself seem more important. I lie about not sleeping or that I am in an abusive household for attention. I strive off of peoples reactions about me. I constantly think that others are thinking about me. When somebody connects with me, I automatically won’t let go of them. I will make excuses to talk to them, to see them. I...
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Help for a Coworker/Friend

I think that this person may be bipolar. She has a lot of this issues that I have read about that people that are bipolar has. She has a family history, Mother and Brother both are bipolar. She has many up and down days. She can be crying in the morning and really happy in the afternoon for example. I have known her for 10 years and she has been foreclosed on twice and...
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Do I Have Enough Symptoms for Borderline Personality Diagnosis?

My entire life, I’ve tried to make sense of things and be able to put them into words. When I came across borderline personality disorder, I thought that maybe I had found my answer. I feel like I’m not real. I’ve never been able to jump in with the world. I feel hollow and empty, numb. I have no identity. So no goals, hopes, dreams, interests. There’s nothing to me. I know nothing about...
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My BPD and Son’s Apathy about It

I’ve had chronic depression starting in childhood with an emotionally absent mother. I was recently diagnosed with PTSD/BPD by new therapist. Christmas marked the beginning of this debacle. which set up the disaster and now my BPD, etc is a Category 5 Tropical Storm. A CONTINENTAL DIVIDE now exists between my son and I has turned awakening my abandonment fears. His response is total silence (he refuses to investigate this new BPD thing) and...
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