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My Lying Has Turned My Family Against Me

From the : I’m 14 and for the past 5 years, I have had issues with ADHD, trichatillomania, compulsive lying, and compulsive eating, as well as self-esteem issues. Although my mother is a psychiatrist, my compulsive lying has turned all my family members against me. They all hate me and when I express that I need help they blatantly ignore me and even though I know I caused this myself, it hurts. I am...
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Why Can’t Anyone Find A Diagnosis For Me?

Hi, within the past year I have been hospitalized three times and I have been in two treatment centers. I have been diagnosed with everything from Borderline to Bipolar with Psychosis, but all of my treating physicians say that those diagnosis’ are incorrect. I deal with chronic suicidal thoughts, frequent self-harm, I apparently engage in risky behaviors, I lack eye contact, I can’t tell the difference between different emotions, I don’t feel pain, I...
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Tired, Very Very Tired

I dislike me. Currently teaching at the university, regularly teach at the high school full-time; so I’m just part timing at the moment. Working keeps me slightly “busy,” but not enough to distract me from my thoughts; every once in a while I have this thoughts of complete unsatisfaction. Last year I taught without a break (all summer + all year round school) and I felt very exhausted towards the end of teaching at...
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Borderline Personality Disorder or Just Traits?

I am confused with the feelings that I possess and have been researching about BPD and wondering if I have it. Any help would be much appreciated: The following traits I possess: 1. Very sensitive to rejection/external environment – mood will change rather drastically if someone even unknowingly slights me in some way. 2. Feelings of suicidal ideation when depressed. 3. Feelings of emptiness deep in core (thankfully this is not very common). 4. Labile mood – depression...
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Teenage Child Says She’s Bisexual

My 13yo (now 15) announced on social media she was Bi.  She has kissed girls who don’t identify as being bi whilst they were all drunk at a party. (Yes she got grounded for the alcohol consumption). She doesn’t date girls or look at them with desire. Friends have tried to set her up with girls she declines, in fact she physically recoils at the suggestion. If a male asks her out on a date...
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How Will I Know When to Go Inpatient with BPD?

I have been struggling the past few years and it’s getting much worse. I ended up at a hospital for an interrupted attempt at suicide and since then the feelings haven’t left. I feel numb all of the time and I see a counselor but they can’t schedule me in except for maybe once a month. I was going to start with some partial hospitalization facility but my insurance only covers inpatient or outpatient,...
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The Need for Pain

I was abused as a child, locked alone in a room for five years with no food or human contact. Ten years later, I am married and we just bought a house, but it seems some of my demons are moving with me. Several years ago I tried to kill myself. I haven’t had any attempts since then, but I have gotten very low. And it’s then that I imagine my worst tortures, usually...
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My Boyfriend of 5 Years Is Chronically Suicidal

From Switzerland: I don’t know if there even is an answer to my situation but I guess asking can’t hurt. And at other places people just kept telling me to ask a professional so here I am. (Since I can’t in real life for multiple reasons one ironically being that I am a medical student…) This is about my boyfriend of almost 5 years. He has been suicidal since before we met, was diagnosed...
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Scapegoated as a Child

I just wish to have opinion of therapist. I stopped communicating with siblings from childhood because I was molested by my older brother when I was nine and he has made inappropriate sexual suggestions to me as adult. My older sister was beaten by our father and our mother didn’t protect her. Instead, our mother scapegoated me from her guilt I am guessing. She made me take the second grade over again because my...
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Hate My Mom Who Won’t Back Off

My mother is obsessed with making up for being a “bad” mother. She paid very little attention to us as children. We essentially raised ourselves. Now she smothers us, calling several times a day, coming to visit 3-4 time per year (she lives in another state), and staying 10 days at a time. All of our interactions involve her trying to teach us the basics, as if we are still 5 year-olds, and demanding...
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Questioning My Mother’s Mental Health

I wonder what I could do. I am here because I need to understand urgently my mother’s issue. We are a good family, I am my parents only child and 3 years ago we have moved countries, from Brazil to the United States. For the past 5 years, me and my dad have questioned if she has any type of mental disorder. She is very stubborn, violent when mad, and very easily irritated. Her...
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