Q. I am 25 and been with my fiancée for eight years. She was my first girlfriend and I her boyfriend. In the 8 years we have broken up twice for short periods of a couple of months and dated other people. I love her very much and she wants to wait until married to have sex which I have respected for these years. Our wedding is three months away and the thought of it makes me feel ill. I recently met someone who made me feel alive — a 40 year old man! My fiancee doesnt wish to travel etc and is happy with what i see as a typical suburban life! Me too! But I am panicking that I’ll never get to see the world etc. I have slept with this man and it was amazing! Now I dont know if im gay or is it just because I have never slept wth a woman before as we are waiting for marriage. Our families are so excited and happy and I am in turmoil! I really dont know what to do!
A. Only you can know if getting married is the right choice but your letter raises some concerns. The fact that you recently slept with a man and thought it was “amazing” is problematic for several reasons. One reason is because this may indicate that you are gay. This may partly explain why the thought of marriage makes you feel ill. Heterosexual men would never sleep with a man even if their fiancé refused to have sex with them. Why? Because they are simply not attracted to men. If there are questions regarding your sexuality it may be wise to postpone the marriage until you sort out these issues.
What is also problematic for the relationship is that you cheated on your soon-to-be wife. Cheating before you’re married is not a sign of a healthy relationship.
You also mentioned that you feel that getting married means that you will not get to travel. If this is important to you and you feel that your fiancé will be holding you back from traveling, this can cause problems in the relationship. You may later come to resent her for “holding you back” from engaging in activities that you enjoy.
As I mentioned before, only you can know if you want to be married to your fiancé. It is important, however, that you get married for valid reasons and not because you feel pressured by her and her family, your family or because it would be too difficult to call off the wedding. These latter are not good reasons to get married.
Based on your letter, it seems as though you might need a little more time to know if you are making the correct decision. You need to be sure getting married is something you want and you are not doing it to please others or because you can’t say no.
Last reviewed: By John M. Grohol, Psy.D. on 5 May 2008
Randle, K. (2008). Wedding Doubts. Psych Central. Retrieved on May 18, 2013, from http://psychcentral.com/ask-the-therapist/2008/05/05/wedding-doubts/