Q. I have had an unbalanced childhood and had to grow up fast to raise my little brother - but that is a whole book on its own. I have always had anxiety - bad anxiety. I shake from when I wake up until I go to bed (If and when I can go to bed). My mind never stops and I am 99% sure I have ADD if not ADHD. I am always worried about completing this and that - I think of starting this and that - therefore never complete any of it. I am also 99% sure that I am a mixture of Mania and Manic - Trust me you can tell since I have been dealing with myself for so long. I think I have about three personalities - 2 of them I know one is Christy the cool hang out with and talk to everyone type - Then Sassy - is just a cocky little B*tch - finds something to worry about and stress about - doesn’t need anybodys help and offended about it if you ask to help me - The third personality I have no name for nor can I really explain - Its the one after Sassy - I never really acknowledge it but can feel it in me when I get upset - I have to control it so therefore I have never experienced it yet. I am always depressed. I took all of your quizzes - I am extremely ADD, Bipolar manic and mania, Depressed, OCD, and slighlty sczh. I never could kill myself nor anyone else - I do not hear voices - but I do talk to myself. I actually beat myself emotionally. I am never satisfied with myself! I know for a fact and have been told by doctors that I need to see a doctor - I am going through female issues in a charity hospital and I am still waiting for an appointment so I could imagine the wait for this. I read on your sight that nasal congestive drugs and pain medication are not good for ADD and/or Bipolar sicknesses. I just had my wisdom removed therefore I not only had pain meds - but I have to take nasal medicine. I had not taken any nasal medicine for a couple of days. Last night I did and today has been the worst day of my life. I have somehow managed to turn a bad mood that my boyfriend woke up in - into everything you could imagine. My eyes hurt from crying so much - I could cry again - I actually cried so hard that it was hard to breath. I have no reasoning for it and I am so concerned because I am destroying my own life - I will trust me - I always leave the people I care for in hopes of not hurting them later on and then have no reason for anything ever happening later. Please help!
A. I am sorry to hear about all of the emotional turmoil that you have been experiencing for years. It must be difficult to live every day under these wretched circumstances. You need to find a good treatment team or therapist who you can work out all of these issues with. It would be helpful if you did get into to see a doctor. That is the best place for you to start. Once you see the doctor, ask him or her about a referral for therapy. If you feel the wait it is going to be too long for the doctor who you already have an appointment with, try somewhere else for a place that may be able to get you in sooner. The best chance you have at resolving these issues is to work with professionals. My advice is to get in to see your doctor as soon as you can and try to find a therapist. I do hope everything works out for you. Please keep me informed about your situation. Good luck.
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Last reviewed: By John M. Grohol, Psy.D. on 25 Sep 2006
