Q. When I was hospitalized I saw a doctor for like 5 minuates and he labelled me as “borderline” which probably is because I struggle with cutting. Where I live they have a protocol for people who they consider “borderlines” basically in for 48 hours and out you go. Its really sad. I am so suicidal I don’t know what direction to turn. My first suicide attempt was in jan 06′ that is my only attempt. Its like every direction I turn I am getting the door slammed in my face. I need serious help. Inside my head is so messed up, I feel like I am gonna take my life away… and i will probably regret it. I tried to meet with our local “crisis team” last week and they wouldn’t see me. I have never had to deal with them in the past. Honestly I feel out of options.I don’t know what to do.How can a doctor who dosent even know my story, he dosent know the things I have been dealing with the past 24 years of my life class me as “borderline” just cuz i cutt. Im out of options.
A. You have many options but suicide is not one of them. Why give up your life, when it’s the most precious thing you have, when you can have a happy life? A good therapist can help you. Counseling will help you tremendously. In counseling they will look at those 24 years in great detail. They will want to know all about your life in great detail. The psychiatrist will be there to help you with medications which can make your life easier and less painful while you under go the counseling, which can be a lengthy time consuming process. Giving up now is extremely premature. Most people must suffer in life to some degree and for different periods of time. I know that from the outside most people “appear” happy but don’t forget you are looking from the outside. Inside many people are suffering; they are just good at hiding it. You need support. Support from your therapist and also from a support group. Life is far too precious a gift to reject. Life is precious. You are life. You are precious. Never forget that through the painful time leading to your recovery. Keep me posted. I hope you have heard my message. Kristina.
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